“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!” 2 Corinthians 5:17
This couldn’t have been a better start to my journey. While sitting at work at the disgustingly early hours of 5 am I looked up a daily devotion and clicked on the first link. I’m finally doing this. I’ve always been skeptical of the people you hear about who claim when they had a problem they just opened their bible and right there on that page was the answer. Well, given that this is the technical age, I guess it’s only fitting my answer came in the form of a webpage. Skeptical am I no more.
Mulligans (a golf term) are set up as the metaphor in this devo, a new start without any penalties. A new start is just what I’m looking for. My drive is to find my new life in Christ. This devotion explains this verse as no longer being driven by the appetites of our old nature. As explained in my story, I grew up in the church, I never had an “old nature” before. In a way this verse speaks to me on many levels. My old nature, isn’t what I’ve done my whole life, but what my past 3 years have been like. The past three years and where I am now give me a better understanding of this verse, I appreciate this verse now. My old nature isn’t a bad one. I don’t do drugs, I don’t party all the time. I am 22 years old and do enjoy a night out drinking with friends, but I don’t indulge or find happiness at the bottom of a bottle. I guess my old nature, my physical nature, is I don’t do anything for me. I work to pay bills and I go to school to get a good job so I can pay the bills I have from school. It’s a shitty cycle. It’s not a cycle I want to be my life, I don’t want to just phase through life not living. I want to be adventurous, to travel, to have children (in like 6 years). I want more out of this life. That’s my new physical nature. My new spiritual nature is something I will work towards. This blog is my journey to my new nature.
I’m not sure if I am completely ready to say, “Here Jesus, I am here to partake in the new life you offer”. But I’m working towards it. It is what I want, but I don’t feel worthy yet.
I want my old to be gone, and I want to be a new creation, but I can’t just say in an instant this is me now. I so badly want to but I have to work out things so I can be at peace with myself. So I can say “wash my sins away”. I have to be able to stop those sins first, and I, slowly, am working on that.
Rev. 3:20 is referenced in this devotion. “Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him, and he with me?” I want to say Yes! Come! but I can’t just yet. I lost my trust in God. I want that trust back, and I will get to that point. I will get to my salvation, and I will be a new creation.
(Anybody else sing the 2 Cor. 5:17 song in their head?)